My life began as thus…. I came into the world normally and progressed averagely. What trials and tribulations came I bore on my shoulders as I trudged on. I had no illusions of grandeur and glory; I simply tucked my chin and moved forward.
I had food to eat and a place to rest, I worked hard and honestly as I provided my daily needs and didn’t waste time on what could have been or could possibly still be.
It was in this mediocre march that God saw fit to burden me with obstacles and pain. My world became dark and binding. I felt as though every breath was a struggle and no longer found the will to engage in that steady climb of living the same way; traveling the same path that I had.
In the dark, my hope was diminished all the world became a haze and surely the restrictions of my stresses were too great for my strength. As I starved emotionally and physically and steadily spiraled into despair I stopped short of the point of utter devastation and death. Here at this place of pain and futility my soul’s fire refused to extinguish and the glimmer of light hidden deep within began to reach and stretch for a home. I cried to my God and emptied my heart. I begged for mercy and love. I claimed the desires that had lain dormant within me; smothered by a history of unworthy beliefs about who and what I was.
I confessed my weaknesses. I humbled myself in the knowledge that truly I could not see a way out of the bleakness all around me. I honored the Lord and openly accepted that it would be He and He only who could preserve and sustain me. I begged to be free and consented to His will. I poured out my soul day and night; I meditated, and pondered and prayed until there was all said that could be, all felt and expressed that was in me- and when complete; I rested. I trusted. I knew that all I could possibly do- I had done and the course of my destiny now lay in God’s hands….here there was peace.
As the darkness continued and time seemed to stop, a new desire began blossoming inside me; a thirst to stretch and grow and change and to BE; a passionate resolve to claim who I really am and see myself as God sees me; a DIVINE and BEAUTIFUL being created for a DIVINE and BEAUTIFUL existence; bathed in abundance and joy.
My desire grew, burning and tingling throughout me. I knew that God’s generosity and love was real and beyond my darkness and limited vision a world of peace, color, sunshine and LIGHT welcomed me.
I committed myself to COURAGE and honor and trust; I reached, I stretched, I risked, I jumped…..
I spread my wings- where no wings had been before and with faith in God I embraced the sky.
I chose to let go of ALL I thought I was and thought I had and trusted the Lord to be my provider and Savior and Redeemer and followed my heart. The world became mine and I KNEW that it WAS created for me. I danced and sang and played in the light. I praised the Lord by living life fully and honoring my talents and gifts. Living in joy and passion and abundance as I trusted my destiny and path God laid for me, I learned that God had desired for me more then I was- he had blessings and incomprehensible miracles awaiting for me.
The sky is my playground, freedom is my song, nectar is my sustenance, soft petals are my place of rest, and beauty is my existence. When I could not see the possibilities for me, God knew them as my truth. When I could not see my Divinity – He ONLY saw my Divinity. He blessed me with a prison so I could know the strength, power and joy of breaking free.
Katie W
(Contribution from a graduate of Impact Trainings ~ Quest Training, Click here for video testimonials from Impact Trainings graduates )
